I recall feeling distinctly uncomfortable this whole day.
A kind of tightness in my chest, a nervous, beating discomfort that causes one to chat too much and attempt false casual laughter that is easily seen through.
There were a number of reasons for this awkward, unlikely Becky. One being it was my first time shooting with my fellow model friend Seungjin and I so wanted him to acknowledge me as a decent model. I see now that I needn’t have worried. How funny it is we consider the eyes of others.
My other reason for feeling nervous was the photographer. He was someone I respected and liked, and I was hoping he would see that I was more than just a face, a body upon which clothes is hung (which is commonly what we expect of models.) Time has a nice way of softening intense emotions; when I look at these photos now, I don’t feel any sense of anxiety like I had that morning. I just appreciate the pictures. Part of me wishes I could go back to that day, maybe try things again. Behind the poises and practiced expressions, there was a girl with a small, fluttering hope in her heart.
To be honest, as beautiful as the photos are, they don’t really do justice to Bukchon Hanok Village. Surrounding the traditional Korean village are so many famous landmarks of Seoul. Gyeongbok Palace, Changdeok Palace, and Jongmyo Shrine are but a stone’s throw away.
The weather was kind that day. Sunny and fresh. I wore yellow because I didn’t have anything else decent to wear. I’ll be perfectly frank; for the amount of preparation I did for this shoot, the photos turned out two times better than they should have. That is thanks to the eye of our photographer, Jiseok.
Come walk along the old stone streets and wooden houses, carefully preserved and protected.
I hope this place lasts forever. Even if only for my own memories.
Snap some photos and tag me on instagram @sincerelybeckyw – Let’s explore Seoul together.
Address: 37, Gyedong-gil, Jongno-gu, Seoul. The closest station is Anguk, line 3.
Happy traveling 🙂